I Struggled with Transformer Math for Months — Here’s How I Finally Got It
Last Updated on August 29, 2025 by Editorial Team
Author(s): Abduldattijo
Originally published on Towards AI.
The Wall That Nearly Broke Me
The equation stared back at me like it was personally offended by my existence.
The article recounts the author’s personal journey and challenges in understanding transformer mathematics, a crucial aspect of machine learning. The author describes their initial struggles with fundamental concepts, underscores their determination to grasp the material thoroughly, and shares insights from groundbreaking research. Through a focused 14-day learning experiment, they engaged deeply with the math behind transformers, including specific techniques like scaling and multi-head attention. Ultimately, the author emphasizes the importance of comprehending these mathematical principles for both practical application and contribution to the field, highlighting a transformative shift in their confidence and understanding.
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